YOU ARE AFRAID OF LOVE!

Last night was a sleepless night. I did a lot of reading and meditating and something in particular jumped at me from "The Art of Spiritual Peacemaking". I'm sharing it here. This chapter is on Passion and Desire.....

Jeshua says: 

"You are afraid of Love! Take a deep breath now. You will not be able to heal that wound until you embrace it. You will not be able to move to the next level of your Self unless you first accept your fear of love. Then your passion will be released on its own without effort on your part. Then you will open like a flower, and your Holy Task will enfold you. Your fear of love will ultimately catapult you into a life you can only imagine now, for then you will have compassion for yourself and all the world. This is what an Emissary of Love, or a savior, must learn. That is why you are here now, reading these words and accepting these Blessed thoughts. You are ready to move forward now."

 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YES!! come to think of it, I still am. I'm afraid of being taken advantage of and be made to look like a fool when love is not 'reciproacted'. I'm afraid to love because hypocrisy does'nt fall too easy with me. I'm afraid of love ..... too many reasons, which now when I think of, I always felt like it was no big deal, but in my heart of hearts, I knew all those reasons had to be dealt with in order for the pure love of Christ to flow through me. I keep expressing it in words to myself and others who I feel such great warmth and affection for because that is what I want to do the most in my life - to love freely and without conditions under the most direst of conditions and in the most loveless of interactions. I will know then - YES!! this is it!!! I'm not there yet! I KNOW theoretically I AM LOVE, but you know that's a whole lot different from actually living LOVE.

How do I know I'm actually afraid of love? I know because .... unexplainable!!!

I have read these words so many many times and yet each time I read it again, it feels like it is for the first time. There is nothing more delightful I would love to do right now than extolling the virtues of love, but I won't because I realise my ideas of it are still attached to the world. The love I feel a lot of the times is fraught with expectations and conditions and loving anyone or anything for those reasons are really depriving myself of the REAL thing. Instead, I will remember those rare and precious times when I actually showed up in Life doing something for someone whom I knew can never repay me back, but the deep peace and joy I felt all the same was beyond precious and irreplaceable.

In Love's Name, Blessed Be! Love is an inside job radiating outwards.

May you experience it this moment eternally!