Timelessness Within The Realm of Time

LENT 2014 DAY 5

Two questions emerged: My "fear of God" and "Timelessness".

Starting with my fear of God. This fact surfaced and bubbled up for questioning which was related to many habits formed in my life the most important of all being that I am undeserving of God.  Unconsciously this thought has dominated my whole existence depriving me of partaking in the full abundance of God's Table.  There was always a part of me that felt I was undeserving and in doing so have hurt my soul beyond measure.  I applaud everyone else's experience, but somewhere at the back of my mind, I think, I realised, that everyone has a right except me.  And so early this morning as I was releasing every bit of the fear I held for God and kept repeating the mantra, somewhere it suddenly changed from "I release the fear of God" to "I Am a Flower of God" and I did'nt even realise that change had happened so spontaneously. How marvelous indeed are the Divine Ways constantly working and living and moving and breathing within us.

My days are becoming more and more Grace filled.  The only teacher I am open to and learning from in these 40 days is from my Inner Master, Teacher and Guru - Jeshua a.k.a. Jesus. Jesus is not some magical being outside of me.  No! that is not so.  Jesus, the angels and all the holy beings are springing from my own consciousness, all reflections of The Divine shining through me as me.

It is incredibly satisfying to experience an ongoing inner dialogue and holy conversation with The Mystical Power within.  I am more and more convinced that everything in this life is reflective. My thoughts are constantly reflecting my changing reality. I always reconfirm this when choosing from decks of oracle cards.  What comes out as an answer to a question I hold is really and truly the reflection of my mind in that instant.  When I choose a card that has an  ominous message,it is because my mind was flooded with doubts and fear. There is no little or a lot of fear. There are no shades and grades of fear.  Either I am in Love or I am in fear.  Simple as that.  When I become aware of present thought reality showing up in the card I hold, I immediately center in, change my mind and choose again - and lo! and behold! an amazing message shows up!!  Its this dream self that is constantly choosing from this dream world, this holographic world. And "someone" is observing these choices - who is that "someone"?  Inquire. 

Last week, our clock stopped. We were two hours behind time, but

neither my husband nor I realised that. We actually thought we had a lot of time despite us doing so much, that we decided to do something we had not done in a long long time - sit by the plants, have tea and biscuits and talk about the philosophy of life which we used to do a lot in the past as our morning ritual.  We truly enjoyed that. Unfortunately, we got disrupted in our peace after that glorious leisure time when my husband realised the clock had stopped and infact he was now 'officially running late'!! Seriously?? When we understood what just happened we just burst out laughing at the wonderful lesson we were being taught about Timelessness and how only we can maintain that or allow ourselves to be disrupted by time. What a beautiful lesson on Timelessness for the day! That was last week but today I was reminded again by Jiddu Krishnamurthy.

Jiddu Krishnamurthy message in today's mail brought my attention back to timelessness today:

So the question is then: can what is be transformed immediately? Which means never allowing time to interfere. Are we coming together? Listen to this, you will find out, it is really simple. If we apply our mind we can solve anything, as has been done, they have been to the moon, built marvellous submarines, incredible things they have done. Here, psychologically we are so reluctant, so incapable, or have made ourselves incapable. So if you do not allow time, or never think in terms of time, then the fact is not - right? I wonder if you see this? Because we allow time the fact becomes important. If there is no time it is resolved. Suppose I died this second, there is no problem. You understand what I am saying? When I allow time I am afraid of death. I wonder if you understand all this? But if I live without time, which is an extraordinary thing if you go into it, psychologically, never. Time means accumulation - right? Time means remembrance, time means accumulating knowledge about oneself, all that involves time. But when there is no time at all, psychologically, there is nothing - you follow? You are capturing something? Are you understanding something? Please come on. - Krishnamurti, Brockwood Park 4th Public Talk 7th September 1980

Blessed Be.