Lent 2014 ~ Day 3

So today is Day 3 of my  commitment to focus on radical transformation.

There is nothing more radical than changing the perceptions of my mind.  Every year I decide to do something 'radical' and I am quite sure at some level it works.  Its not so much the effort in doing as it is in setting the intention to be opened to change.  I'm not a very disciplined person, but what the heck! I have embraced that about myself even if it appears to be a 'flaw'.  I like my flaws now.  They are good markers indicating where I Am in my inner travels and travails.

This year I have decided to really drop the "comfort zone" and go into the areas where I have just been sitting at the edge till date. Whenever I am stuck and don't know what to do next, I like to think of our Indian Rishis and Sages.  They knew it all from their profound wisdom through their one pointed focus on Spirit. They just moved to places that nurtured their spirits.  People came to them.  They were least interested in the world.  I know the baubles of the world can be so mesmerizing, the stories so compelling, and the drama so exciting, but what is it all really?  All this is surrounded by pain. Even relationships are painful.  I am tired of being the one to always, always make the first move on everything, to initiate the next step or to even initiate a conversation. I am tired of being raised to a higher standard just to suit someone else's low image of themselves. I am fatigued, tired, bored and fed up.  I have been travelling this inner path for quite some time now and I find myself constantly stuck and going back to the same things over and over again.  I am so fed up now, I just want to make a 360 degree change! As I drop more and more, the mind just seems to keep bringing up more and more.  Most times I feel the rest of the world is far more awakened than I even though I see otherwise - NOW WHY ON GOD'S EARTH WOULD I FEEL THAT WAY?  Am I being too hard on myself and raising my own standards and then feeling frustrated that I can't catch up with my own image??  That must be it! No, I am sure it is - well, atleast it's one of the 'problem' areas.  I'm saying "problem" for now because I am still going into more and more, deeper and deeper, radical acceptance of myself.

The mind is a foxy trickster! If handled with wisdom and understanding, it can bring you to the heights of spiritual bliss.  Ofcourse it could very easily do the opposite as well.

I love this message I received for today. Once again my hope and faith in myself is revived.  See, I love words! They are empowering!

« A child coming into the world is a soul limiting itself, and it suffers at having to come into a body where it feels so confined. Even if this limitation is necessary to allow for manifestation on the physical plane, human beings must never forget that their soul’s home is infinite space. Shut up in a body, it longs for that immensity where it expands and rejoices. This is why, even if humans dread death, because they experience it – naturally of course – as a wrench, their soul welcomes it as a liberation.

Life is made up of these two movements, limitation and expansion, which each person must learn how to balance. Even when you are called upon from all sides, if you do not want your soul to end up suffocating and becoming weaker, do not allow material tasks and worries to take up all your time and energy. From time to time, for a few moments at least, stop, go within, and open yourself up to immensity… then go back to what you were doing.  »

~ Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov ~

And then, there is one of my favorite authors and spiritual teachers, Oriah who made a personal observation about herself to which I can relate.

"So, as I woke up this morning filled with memories about Marie Claire I wondered: Where am I feeling caught in the past? Where am I missing the opportunity to lay down a burden and walk on with more freedom? Where am I refusing healing, afraid to be free, not allowing myself to receive fully what is offered to me now?  

And I offer a prayer for my old friend, grateful for what is stirred by remembering her, wishing her spirit deep peace and freedom."

How spot on! Is she asking me these questions?? http://myfavouriteexcerpts.blogspot.in/2014/03/moving-on.html

And finally a new way of looking at life today! "The Power of Equinox - March 21, 2014 : FINDING BALANCE IN ACCELERATING ENERGY"

http://myfavouriteexcerpts.blogspot.in/2014/03/the-power-of-equinox-march-21-2014.html

Now that is a lot of valuable stuff to ponder on today.  I am blessed and I know it.  Because that is what the God stuff is about.  One continuous, endless, eternal mass of Grace and Blessings all strewn all around me like sparkling diamonds.  Aum.

End of Rambling.  Blessed Be.