Wishing You Love, Peace and Joy not only today, Christmas Day, but all through Your days. Merry Christmas!

I love these words: ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS IS YOU. Its a two-way message: from God to me and from me to God. God and I are ONE. God and I are One. This is by far the most liberating Truth I learned along the way. What a long way I have come and yet not moved a single step. This is the true birth of Christ - knowing God and I are not separate, which makes this the absolute truth:

I am God's Son, complete and healed and whole,

    shining in the reflection of His Love.

    In me is His creation sanctified

    and guaranteed eternal life. In me

    is love perfected, fear impossible,

    and joy established without opposite.

    I am the holy home of God Himself.

    I am the Heaven where His Love abides.

    I am His holy Sinlessness Itself,

    for in my purity abides His own.

~ A Course In Miracles ~  

  

And on a more practical 'worldly' note, here's an inspiring Heaven Letter from God. I love it. It takes care of the nitty gritty concerns about living life to the fullest.

Let the World Come to You

Heavenletter #5144 Published on: December 25, 2014 

God said:

What does ease in life mean to you? It could be lots of money though I haven’t noticed that having lots of money necessarily brings more ease to those who have it. Then they have to work hard at keeping it or doubling it.

Ease could well be not working so hard at life and not spending yourself all over the place. You do not have to be the best person in the world or the most loved. Conserve your energy.

I do not speak of being lazy. I speak of your not having to please everyone in order to win their approval. This is a lot of work. It is never done. You don’t really get anywhere. If you were a car, it’s like you get a temporary fill-up, yet you have a leak in your tank. You may spend too much energy for too little.

You are here on Earth to give love, this is true. It is not love to over-spend yourself, however. Come to the point where you love yourself, and you will give lots of love without over-spending. Likely you have been over-extending yourself. Life is to live yet not to use up all your energy on what doesn’t really matter and then not have enough energy left over for your needs. This is working your fingers to the bone for a pittance.

There is no virtue in getting wound up and worn out. I never said to cut yourself short. Better to give all your food away than all your energy. You don’t have to hunt for yourself and your value. You are already found. I found you in My heart and in My thoughts long before you came to Earth. I did not find you wanting. Why, then, do you find yourself wanting?

There is nothing you have to prove. You can’t prove your worthiness anyway. If you have to have evidence today of your value to the Universe, then you will require more evidence tomorrow.

You may have an addiction to approval from others. What happens with addictions? You need more and more of the substance until it runs your life. With this addiction of working so hard for approval, you get nowhere. You get a little of what you want every day at great expense to you. You cheat yourself.

Hey, sit down. Put your feet up. You do not have to prove yourself to anyone. You are not to go around as a beggar. It is you who needs to take yourself on credit, beloveds. I believe in you. I know what I created. I do not haggle over your worth. I tell you flat out that you are vital as you are to the Universe. I tell you to spread Me and golden light. This does not take effort. You are not lifting a ton, beloveds. Why do you work so hard at being loved?

Start from the premise that you don’t need to impress anyone or win anyone over. Know that I love you, and My love for you is not a question of being pleased. My love for you is established.

You are gold, and My love for you is enough to last you. You do not have to go around knocking on every door, asking for a hand-out of approval. You are already verified. When you chase after approval, you are chasing the wind. You are flying a kite. You work too hard at it. No need to work on it at all. Do good work, and that is enough. If someone comes to your door, that is wonderful. Let the world come to you. You do not need to do somersaults to gain notice and approval. You do not need to get out of breath and declare yourself someone who tries his hardest and gives 100% all the time.

It has been said to rest on the seventh day. I am telling you to let go of this heavy work of winning approval seven days a week.

Be respectful and don’t try so hard to earn respect. Love and like others, and don’t try so hard. I see this impossible task you set for yourself, and I ask you to take a break from working so hard and to just be. Just be. You are a Being. Free yourself from having to work so hard at winning affection. It’s okay to be an ordinary mortal. You don’t have to be extraordinary. You don’t have to be at the top of the class. Just be.

Source: http://heavenletters.org/let-the-world-come-to-you.html

May You and Your Family have a Light-filled Christmas Dear Reader. 

With Love and Christmas Blessings.

Lavina 

  

I love this post so much .........

Blessings from A Course in Miracles

by Ana Holub

The following is an excerpt from the "Blessings from A Course in Miracles" on-line course. If you would like to enroll in the course, click here. 

“Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world.” — Workbook, Lesson 62

This small sentence has helped me so many times, in a million different situations. When I think about the purpose of ACIM, I feel it’s to teach us this: forgiveness is our function as the light of the world.

Let’s take this statement apart to get the most out of it. It starts out with “Forgiveness is my function.” This teaching is a signpost; it’s a marker which constantly shows us the way.

There are so many moments throughout each day when we can lose direction. “What’s my function?” we ask subconsciously. Is it being a family member, career person, helper, hot date, smart aleck, best/worst person on Earth? These are roles our egos would have us serve.

But Jesus tells us that forgiveness is our function – before everything else. He brings us a reminder that underneath all of our roles and posturing, we have a spiritual purpose.

Our mission is forgiveness as it’s explained in the Course. This is not traditional forgiveness. It’s not seeing that something wrong happened and then trying to fix it using apology or reconciliation.

Apology and reconciliation are wonderful tools to use in the world, but they are distinct from ACIM’s forgiveness. In the Course, forgiveness is a spiritual action given through each person’s free will. It means seeing the absolute, perfect innocence of every person, including yourself, no matter what happened.

God creates us in perfect innocence, not once, but eternally and constantly. Tapping into this truth brings us to the second part of Lesson 62: “Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world”. In it, we’re reminded WHO we are. We are the Light of the World, the very stuff of God.

If we can remember that we ARE the light of the world, and all we need to do is forgive (i.e. see the perfect, innocent light inside of everyone), we’ll enter an experience of the Atonement, or complete union with God. At-one-ment.

This is the Course in a nutshell. What’s challenging is to live Lesson 62 all the time. No exceptions, no vacations into unconsciousness, no excuses. As you’ll probably find as you work with this lesson, you’ll need to create some new habits of mind in order to begin to be successful. But don’t worry. You’re eternal. The Course shortens the amount of time needed to awaken, but you still have all the time you need.

ACTION STEPS:

Write down on a small piece of paper or on a post-it note, “Forgiveness is my function as the light of the world.” Look at this lesson every morning, throughout the day, and again before you go to bed. Turn it over in your mind. Try it on with your heart.

Watch how many times you blame yourself, another, or Life for not being perfect, in your opinion. Then remember the lesson. Turn your idea of yourself around. You’re no longer one person; you are the light of the world. You no longer just survive; you forgive and live.

Write down your observations and new understanding. See what happens, both inside yourself and how the world responds to you. Enjoy exploring the innocent perfection of your true nature!

Source: http://www.dailyom.com/articles/2014/40418.html

  

Life

I found GOD ~ 2

I had'nt planned on writing part two to my earlier blog "I found GOD"*  but the affirmations, confirmations and synchronicities have been so many since that realization, that I had to share what I found in "The  Joel Goldsmith Reader" pertaining to exactly my own understanding shortly after that. But before I go there, I want to share how precious this practice of blogging is to me.  It helps me to put it out there, to acknowledge to God how well its working for me whatever the experience may be.  Life has all come down to ONE point and that point of start and return lies within me.  The secret is to FLOW.  Its what every saint and sage advises us to do.

*  http://lavinajournalinglivingmoments.blogspot.in/2014/08/i-found-god.html

 

There is no such thing as being or becoming spiritual.  Spirituality is our true essence, identity and nature.  In truth and reality there is no opposite meaning for spirituality either. The mind just needs to be informed about that. 

This morning while my milk was on the stove, I got distracted and forgot about it for a less than a second and it just boiled over!  I usually get irritated about these minor mishaps in the kitchen because I am always trying to hurry things up, but now I have moved to a slower pace and I can see the meaning in every mundane task.  Like the milk boiling over because my attention was removed for a split second, my own mind is like that.  The moment I take my attention from my Higher Self to my lower self/body, I change direction.  "Get a milk boiler" some would respond ... yeah! I can, but the path to the Self is not a quickie .... It is a conscious, mindful path. Everything is The Self.  Consciousness of this fact and Truth makes it REAL for us.  Its a path that spirals upwards in a blissful dance like state to be enjoyed and savored every step of the way.  With that, let me get back to Joel Goldsmith's precious words. 

Excerpt from "THE ONLY GOAL MUST BE ATTAINING CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS" by Joel S. Goldsmith.

"After seventeen years"?  How long does it take?  How long does it take a student to attain spiritual consciousness?  I can give you half the answer.  A student cannot even begin to attain that consciousness until his goal is no longer that of meeting his personal problems of health, supply, or happiness.  He must no longer be preoccupied with personal gain.  The search for God Awareness must become primary motive of study.  When that is true then the spiritual student is halfway "home".  He must decide that the attainment of Christ consciousness is his only goal and that having help for other problems is of secondary importance.  I am not saying that anyone should neglect human situations or obligations, but these should be secondary.  It then might not take too long."

I would joke a lot with my good friend Poonam that I feel like a monkey on a stationary bike just cycling but going nowhere!  I understand now it was because I spent so much time trying to overcome all my weaknesses and heal my body, mind and spirit mostly from the level of the body consciousness.  It always felt like I'm getting there and about to make a breakthrough, and back I would be to exactly where I started.

I am so blissfully happy I finally got it! I understand its a very common problem for many students  on the path.  One does'nt even realise that one is focusing so much on material manifestations believing we will become awakened and aware.  It makes perfect sense to me now why true blue saints were least interested in manifesting "abundance" in this world.  They were already incredibly abundant - just not in the way we would want.

Aum.

Peace Is My Birthright

 

Life cannot be adequately expressed in words.  The "Allness" of Spirit pervades all - everything.  No matter what is happening now, in this moment, it is all good.  Its all God.  All is well.  I found it difficult in the past to 'see' all of the happenings in life as God no matter how many affirmations I said or how books I read, or how many Youtube lectures I listened to.  It was difficult to stay focussed on the center of Life.

I find it so much easier now as I see the stuff that's happening in the world on the news - the insane madness of murder and war waged by one country on another, the ongoing warring and bullying tendencies of the strong on the weak, the so-called aid that self proclaimed superiors are all so willing to  give to other weaker countries - and ofcourse the 'help' comes in the form of more ammunition. There's a call for peace on the one hand and a declaration of war on the other ... the corruption, disintegration of life and human values  etc. etc. etc.

And on the other hand, there are many many souls working in silence on themselves, healing and restoring and transforming themselves through the Power of the Allness of Life back to their original Innocence.  Its all happening side by side.  This has always been so and this will always be so till the cosmic game is over IN THE MIND.

I am acknowledging all of Life in all of its forms and I know now that this cannot be viewed without proper inner strength and a solid foundation in Spirit.  To just stay centered and let it pass.  Conversing with my Inner Divinity in total silence gives a new perspective.  A perspective that cannot be described in words.  The falsity of it all begins to wash away until I come to that point where I just burst out laughing because its all so funny the way my mind has been in such control over me.  And I am able to take back my power visit by visit to my Inner Sanctuary.

Life is for the LIVING. To view all of Life without judgment is to LIVE.  After all, all that is happening in the bigger picture is happening in the smaller one too - within me - or else it would  be impossible to get a ringside view if that were not true. I see that now more clearly.  The biggest challenge in life is to let go of the aggression that starts within myself.  If I cannot curb it or channelise it, I am harming only myself - big time and consequently the world.

Peace is my natural state.  Peace is my birthright.

Aum.  

I found GOD

 

I found God! !!!!!!  What a strange proclamation from someone who has been on the spiritual path since the last 18 years. 

What exactly does that mean?  Well,  what have I been doing all this time if I have not already found God? Quite simple.  Walking on my path and learning along the way ABOUT what IS of God and what IS not of God.  I was also exposed to many many stories and books and articles   ABOUT  God.  It has taken me this long to discover that there is a BIG difference.  All good stuff for sure. All best sellers and widely acclaimed genuinely beautiful Souls who are making a huge difference in the world. They are serving a purpose and doing amazing things creating magic and miracles in their lives and in the lives of others. All have found God in their own way and expressing their own Divinity in a world that has space for everyone. But there are those few rare Souls who guide you to focus on God Alone. That's the part I have been missing.  Paramahansa Yoganada suggests that we seek THE GIVER not His phenomenal Gifts. I read this guidance many years ago, but it has taken this long a time to actually sink in and get it!

And yet, I felt something still missing in my life.  I had'nt really 'softened'.  I was still 'hard'.  There was an essence, an ingredient missing.  I was still viewing life from the lenses of the world.  I was still anxious about my health, relationships and finances.  I was still wanting something or the other.  I was still restless. I was still feeling triggered.  I was okay for a while and then I would be back to the same old rut.  I think I just got so tired - more tired than I have ever been before.  So, more than a month ago I decided to bury myself in all my inadequacies and dissatisfactions and pain and fear and what-not and not emerge till I found my answers.  I do this often and it has always taken me one step further. Nothing goes to waste.  All that we learn along the journey has a purpose to it.  No learning is complete in itself. Its an eternal beautiful journey and along the distance, you just create a space and acknowledge everyone you meet. Let them know they belong. Most of us need permission because we are still ruled by fear a lot of the times. We remember to give ourselves that permission every day so that we can empower ourselves for the next leg of the journey.  These were the thoughts that were strolling around in my mind.

And then it just happened! 

Last week I had made a list of all the stuff that still plagued my life alongwith action and possible solutions or outcomes.  I stared at my list.  No enlightening moments.  Just dread.  Just the whole idea of dealing with them all again and again made this task wearisome.

I sat in despair for a long time and just did nothing.  When I came back to the list, a sudden flash just lit my whole mind.  God IS the answer.  

Ahem! I know! Aint I on 'the spiritual path' Bright Spark?

Yes! said my Bright Spark - "there's manifestation and then, there's manifestation." 

And in that moment some simple deep Truth questions just burst into my consciousness with clarity.  Everything IS God.  But how aware of God am I?  Do I spend time communing with Him/Her or am I just busy learning and working on tools to manifest wellbeing and goodness in my life?

All answers to those questions are right depending where you are in the moment.  Life works differently for each Soul. Life has a very unique relationship with each Being. That is Life's purpose - to commune deeply and intimately with each Soul, but few listen - very few indeed.  I have never listened fully, properly and deeply before, but this day, the very present NOW MOMENT, I had the perfect answer for me.  The question was always seeking me as was the answer finding me.  It all became an experiential Truth for me.

I looked at my list once again and wrote: GOD IS THE ANSWER TO EVERY SINGLE POINT ON THAT LIST.

And then I felt a deep peace descend upon me.  I had this deep melting, molten longing for God. I found God in the deep silence of my Soul, in that surrendering and letting go completely.  Releasing every phoniness.  I want to MANIFEST God - not just His/Her Gifts.  I want to just sit with God and catch up with this Awesome Being of Love within me and talk with and commune with IT.  I guess in that moment I really understood what "effortless" really means. There comes a time in your life when all that you have ever learned in the world does'nt seem relevant enough for you personally. But in the web of Life it is important to acknowledge, learn and share so that another Beautiful SouI will become part of all of creation.  And so, I am so honored and deeply grateful for their contribution because each and everyone of it gave me more confidence and faith. But in order for my part of the web to shine brilliantly, I have to take that leap of faith alone and solo and use my Inner Light to direct and guide me.  I must acknowledge my own GPS so to speak and trust it to take me where I am needed to be. There is a preciously unique Jewel in each Being's Sacred Heart and in that Heart The Only Power and Presence dwells delighting in Itself and wanting to dance a different dance through each Soul and sing a different tune.  God wants to just delight and be in delight.  It wants to be born anew every moment.  Why not delight and be reborn every moment and make it wildly fun as well?

  

I found God.  Period.  When everything is completely handed over to God, I don't need to actually think about what to 'do' nor do I need to sit with techniques to manifest.  Just the deep longing for God does it all.  And soon I discovered I really don't need the world or anybody for my happiness.  The world is there and it is my utmost and rare privilege to just shine and dance from my deepest core. 

The world IS what I Am.

  

Dear Divine Soul

Dear Divine Soul.

What a beautiful ring to it!!

I've noticed whenever I address a person in my mind with the words "DEAR DIVINE SOUL" something amazing happens.  That person just lights up in my mind and I actually feel a definite shift instantly.  This person is no longer the human form but a burst of heavenly cosmic Light.  Whatever painful emotions I may carry about that person simply vanishes instantly.  

What a beautiful wand my mind can be!  It can turn nothing to anything and anything to nothing.  

Its truly time to SEE the REAL for what it IS. 

God Loves Me!

The Three most powerful words : GOD LOVES ME.

GOD LOVES ME. Pure simple Truth. Nothing complicated about this.  I have discovered this to be the most powerful statement in my Life. If I do not understand this or forget this as a  revelation, as a truth, and/or as a knowing, then nothing can ever make sense. I will be at Life's ups and downs swinging like a  pendulum.  I will be rootless and without proper foundation. Knowing God loves me is my Truth. It brings back to memory my innocence, my safety, my ocean of being.  Everything belongs.  Every thing is perfect as it is and I have no desire to change anything for anything else or  substitute  something for something else.  All becomes pure Grace. I am learning to live with Patience and Humility with this knowledge.  I am falling into Grace every time I am consciously standing in perfect awareness of this Eternal Truth.  God Loves Me and nothing will ever change this.  I am loved completely, totally and unconditionally. 

Says Adyashanti .....

“When we really start to take a look at who we think we are, we become very grace prone.”

“You’re no longer separate from that beautiful flow. You no longer have a relationship with life because you are Life.”

And So It Is. Aum.

Spiritual Summer Heat

The last few days have been intense in more ways than one.  The weather is extremely hot for starters and I can feel the heat rising up at times in my body.  Needless to say it became a question for self inquiry. 

What is this heat all about? I could see how Nature is programmed in such a mystical way. The seasons come forth as a natural process to help us keep abreast within and to help us to be preoccupied with our own natural processes ... to be in touch with the weather and move alongwith it, so to speak. Its a reminder to bring our focus back to where it belongs - within! In this blistering summer heat, I am reminded that all my trespasses can be burnt out, transformed and healed.  The more I release and allow, the more will be released and allowed.  The more I send forth my  uncertainties, doubts, fears, etc. to The Central Sun for purification, the more likely I am going to be having an uncomfortable physical experience but its not going to last forever because the magical monsoons will shower us with her blessings of water!  Its part of the 'heating' and healing experience. While it is said that magic comes with a price, I definitely believe miracles come with no price. No charge at all. Infact it's all 'loss' and yet its a winner. I loose all that is no more helpful to my life on the one hand and on the other I gain deeper perspectives and inner wisdom because of that 'loss', not to mention healing and transformation!

Since I was on a roll with the self inquiry, I took this opportunity to also sit with something else that has been nagging  me for a long time now. You see, when I watch the world on TV, there are certain places, people and environments that appear to be so familiar.  Its like I have been there, I feel I belong there, there's a taste of familiarity ... and yet, I have reasoned with myself, 'how is that possible?' I may 'see' and 'feel' the vibration of familiarity and belonging but how would I explain the present day setting? If I was actually there in some past life, it would have an older setting. Since I have never travelled the world in this lifetime, I have no memory or remembrances as such that could serve as an explanation. Not all parts of the world feel that way to me. There are also parts of the world that appear unfamiliar. In the last two days these thoughts have been coming and going in my mind and suddenly! .... !!!! comes an audacious thought from nowhere!!!

Is it entirely possible that I am perceiving something new that is beyond my usual frame of reference? Is it possible that I am beginning to understand what the 'unreal' really means? Is it all becoming more real for me? It feels now that this whole world and life as we see it (ancient, old, modern, new, present day, etc.) is completely part of the unreal dream. Is that why I can actually see the futility of my life just going round and round and keeps coming back to full circle - which I can see now is a point of inquiry - with the same old patterns arising and the same kind of people constantly showing up in my experience? Its all memories. There's no reality. That's why life feels so limited because we are in this realm of our minds which appears to have no door opening to a new life.  Everything appears to be recycled.  Even though technology seems to have made phenomenal progress on the one hand, on the other hand the old is all coming back (whether movies, songs, fashions, education, etc. etc.)and everyone is trying to give a 'new' spin to the old. I feel like we are in limbo.

Is that why I am sensing deeply an old familiarity about the world even though it has a seemingly new spin to it today?  Even interactions with people from other parts of the world seems so familiar and known?  The energy feels like energy that I have interacted and shared in previously.  Wow! what a mystery filled with an inner history, perhaps?

Ancient wisdom tells us that for us to move forward without pain and suffering is to live in the "NOW" COMPLETELY.  This needs deeper comprehension. This is not a New Age lingo. Its not easy to live in the moment.  To live in the moment means complete attention right here, right now, with not an inkling of the mind wandering anywhere. This means letting go all that is familiar and 'safe'.  This means breaking down boundaries where I needed keep them in order to protect myself.  This means to completely reverse my beliefs and to be open to complete change. It also means that I will need to evaluate how long I can keep up charades of pretending to be a part of something or someone just not to upset the apple cart or the known and familiar. It means doing my thing without the need for accolades and praise and recognition. This means forgetting the celebration of birthdays and anniversaries because those are days that make us feel extra special.  All attention is focussed on me and its the only time I can get people to do that!!!  This means building the foundations of something entirely new.  Can I do that?  I'm working on it. I have been working on this for many years now. In my mind there has never been another option. TO CHANGE IS TO CHANGE FROM WITHIN FIRST.

Today, for the first time ever, I felt like a very 'ancient' Soul. "I Am Unborn" says Nisargadatta Maharaj. Indeed, we all are. It's our purpose in life to come to that recognition and remembrance too.

Aum.

My Spiritual Milestones ~ I

Way back in 1996 when I encountered Buddhism and dived right into it with determination to learn about myself, the world, and my relationship with the world, I did'nt know that I was indeed opening a vast path of knowledge for myself. I was as committed as they come and even surprised myself with the fervor and passion I manifested in this 'project'. I surprised myself! Then in 2003 I came to a stagnant point, left the buddhist organisation and started a solo spiritual journey.  

It was at this time that I chanced upon a very very old copy of The Bhagavad Gita in my husband's temple.  It was a family heirloom. The pages were so old and the paper felt like they were going to disintegrate in my hands as I touched them. I opened the sacred Book randomly not having a clue what to expect. I had never ever read The Bhagavad Gita. I had heard stories of "The Ramayan" and also followed the televised series, but never read the Scripture itself. The first verse my eyes fell on was the one that propelled me into the reading and study of Hinduism.

Lord Krishna assures the seeker (paraphrasing) that when he dies and is reborn, the only thing he will ever carry over to his next birth is his spiritual knowledge. He will be placed in a family that will facilitate the continuation of his spiritual progress. This really was incredible and was such encouraging and heartening news indeed which proved to be the best motivator ever! The fact that nothing is going to be wasted just made my journey even more sweeter. A new learning was being gifted to me. I could'nt put down The Gita and loved every verse and the sheer experience of getting to know Lord Krishna and all that He was about was exhilirating. I just love him. Since then I have been a wannabe mystic and a spiritual enthusiast. I fell in love with Lord Krishna. I remember feeling I was being 'disloyal' to Jesus because I fell in love with The Buddha too earlier.  But as I took each step forward I began to learn that all are ONE. I was falling madly in love with different Aspects of Spirit. This was new information for me - one which I lapped up as licence to love freely all the great Masters who taught me something new. I understood it was important for me to stay committed to The Source. The form could change, but the Unchanging Source was the back of all these Aspects. It definitely makes no difference to them because they do not see any 'line' from where they 'stand'. They each saw 'me' as "One" with them individually and collectively.  

Paramhansa Yogananda, spiritual teacher and author of "Autobiography of a Yogi" advised (paraphrasing) that one should have a clear concept of what God means (to you) and then proceed from there in one's spiritual practice.  Until and unless one is clear about this, there will be a lot of uncertainties along the journey. 

The following verse pretty much nailed what God means to me. God was beginning to have a new Identity for me.  The Spirit was Everything and Everywhere. I could choose from any point, and I will find It.

"Still your mind in Me, still yourself in Me,

And without doubt you shall be united with Me,

Lord of Love, dwelling in your heart.

But if you cannot still your mind in Me,

Learn to do so through the practice of meditation.

If you lack the will for such self discipline,

Engage yourself in selfless service of all around you,

for selfless service can lead you at last to Me.

If you are unable to do even this,

Surrender yourself to Me in Love,

Receiving success and failure with equal calmness

As granted by Me."

~ The Bhagawad Gita"

Incredible indeed! What an awesome assurance. Be still. If you cannot be still, then keep aside time to meditate on me. If you lack discipline for meditation, then follow the path of selfless service. And if all else fails, just SURRENDER to Me!

However, one question was still to be answered. After all these years, my search ended two days ago! 

Aum

Coming up in my next blog will be "The Four Yogas".

Mooji

I never blog at night and definitely not in the wee hours of a morning.  But today I'm wide awake because I slept for three continuous hours (5.30-8.30 pm) in the evening. 

I like blogging because, like I have said many times before, its very cathartic for me.  Its my "Dear Diary" thing except that it is not only for Dear Diary's eyes, but for the world as well. Its me putting it out there ... sharing my truth kind of thing which, by the way, keeps changing to arrive at "Thee Truth". Writing tugs at my sensibilities bringing me right to my core and changes me a little bit more in the truth direction.

This evening one of the videos I watched was "The Death of Death" about a lady who had been grieving for the past five years after the loss of her husband and son. Mooji skillfully led her into herself until she ended up not only finding peace with their deaths and herself, but she wound up laughing and singing a chant as well! https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ungvLDH8OmY&feature=em-uploademail  Watching Mooji is always such an honor and privilege for me.  Once we break free from our stories, there is more and more space created for the Divine to enter. 

Yesterday I watched a speech by Marianne Williamson which was about a 'deeper conversation" basically addressed to the tech industry.  Her speech was fiery, and while it impressed me yesterday, a few hours later it felt like cold ash. There are  all kinds of spiritual teachers with their unique brand of teaching, understanding and interpretation of Truth. I was reminded of the horrors of this world and how changes had to take place.  It was a very gloomy picture.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fFE0GMI9HJ8 

But that was yesterday! Because today gave me a new vision of the world and that was by none other than my dear Mooji!!

Now, who would want to argue with that??!!

Aum

   

In My Heart

“Few are those who see with their own eyes and feel with their own hearts.”  

~ Albert Einstein ~

This is the central theme of my life now. I am listening to the voice of my Soul.  I am feeling more at peace. I am feeling braver and more courageous as I take another step forward to walk the path that has already been illumined by Spirit.

In "The Art of Spiritual Peacemaking" Jesus says "You have been called to be a bearer of peace in this world of dreams.  There is a reason for this.  You want to wake up from this world and it is the only way.  Do you understand this?  The only way for you to awaken is to awaken others. And yet, no one needs to wake up, but YOU. Think about this for a moment. No one needs to awaken but you. Why then do I say that you must give this to receive it? It is so simple. Because you are only giving to yourself.  There is no one there but you to give or receive".

This message is so powerful. It refreshes my soul. It is allowing me to 'see' with deeper clarity the Power of God reflected in me. The Light of Spirit is my True and Real Companion always. I am always perfect as God made me. This is my only task to remember. Aum.

What Is Going On In My Mind Right Now?

When I put aside everything just for a brief moment, descend into deep thought, and ask myself just this one simple question :

"What's going on in my mind this very moment, right now ... what's going on ... not the surface thoughts, but the thoughts behind the surface thoughts?" 

My answer comes up with another inquiry : "Is all of this true?"

Is all of this true?

It has been established that I am not my body or my name. Then who am I? A good question which I know very well theoretically. But how much of it do I know  experientially?

Silence and meditation is the route.  Its the place to begin to facilitate The Inquiry deeper. When I direct all my energies to this or any other question I have, I find myself falling into my Heart.  What better place to be than this?  I smile. 

Aum

The Storm

Yesterday, afternoon became black as night in New Delhi, India.  What started out as a dust storm ended up in utter destruction leaving us with no power supply for many, many hours long after the freak storm. When big rain drops started falling almost settling the dust, I found myself walking out and witnessing the weather change from a stifling hot day with the sun shining as brightly as ever to night almost by magic. Day just turned to night! I saw the lightening flashes and the trees swaying dangerously and stuff flying around from roof tops. I was so fascinated by it all never once thinking of the aftermath of such a storm. I just decided to 'BE' and witness my own feelings. Perhaps I felt this desire more strongly since I am becoming more and more at home in my 'elemental body' and the connection it has to all of the Earth plane.  The elements are represented in our chakras and though we live in a dream world, everything appears so real and misleading. I noticed how calm I became while the hailstones started pelting down (luckily I was'nt hurt by even one). I began to notice the shadowy outlines of the many trees in my colony and felt like I was in a story book. Everything seemed so surreal. The phrase "eye of the  storm" came to mind because that is exactly how this experience appeared. I got a metaphorical and pictorial view of what it is really like when we find ourselves in the middle of  life transforming and life changing situations and circumstances.  It's literally like the dark night of the soul. All you can do is be an observer and stay centered till the 'storm' passes.

And then you open your mind and see it all beginning to clear up. You're okay with it because something cleansing has taken place. Everything feels washed and new somewhere in your consciousness.

By the end of the day, just before midnight, a very old karmic issue resurfaced. I knew exactly how I was going to deal with it and put it to rest completely. Nature taught me generously today and I was deeply grateful for this experience.

There is always a rainbow after a storm as Light breaks into the dark clouds of change and transformation.

Aum

http://indiatoday.intoday.in/story/massive-storm-rain-hits-delhi-ncr/1/364513.html

Truth

“In our student days we sought God, or Truth, as a means to health, peace, security, safety, and harmony. Now we know that these are not to be found outside of Him, and that the experience of God is our only desire. Now we have risen above the desire for health or aught save Him alone. All must rise above the desire for peace, health, joy, and abundance. ‘And this is life eternal, that they might know thee the only true God.’” ~ Joel Goldsmith ~

"To everyone who would practice Understanding there must come the willingness to renounce belief in mental action. He must know that the Truth is not thought, that the Truth is not a result of mind, but that Truth is Divine Intelligence in operation.

It is not sufficient to perceive that sickness is a dream, but one must see also that there is no personal mind believing in sickness.It is not enough to say that sin is forgiven, but one must come to admit that the sin was never sinned.

It is a step up to discern that sorrow and limitation are the results of false thinking and living, but it is a step higher still to discern that there was never a mistake made, that there is no one who believes in mistakes and in sin.Disease and death were never included in the Intelligent activity of the All-Good." ~ Lillian DeWaters ~

  

Who Would I Be Without This Thought?

Who would I be without any of the thoughts going on in my head this moment?

I pondered.

NOTHING

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING

This morning I stumbled upon one of Byron Katie's videos and listening to her always infuses me with a deeper desire to know about my thoughts right now.  That's what true teachers do - they take you within.  And so as I thought about a present situation that I would like to understand, I asked the question "who would I be without these thoughts about this person?"  And as I delved into the very question, I found myself falling into an abyss.  I could see how this one thought came from so many previous thoughts and beliefs.  I went as far back as I could and discovered what started out as a seed thought took on a life of its own and grew into a big sturdy tree.  

I could see how many trees I planted. Every tree appeared different according to the thoughts I nurtured into belief.  The 'lovely' looking trees came from perceived 'happy' beliefs and the distorted ones came from another kind of belief that did'nt inspire joy.  The sturdier the tree, the stronger the thoughts about that 'tree'. I thought what a forest I have created!! I thought if I walked around and uprooted every "thought-tree" what would there be? Nothing but space.  It was in this space that my reality was being created with every thought I took seriously (or not).  When I closed my eyes and asked the question again, I saw nothing.  When I opened my eyes, I did'nt even need to ask the question - the questions became the answers in my reality alone.  With further inquiry I found that it was much easier to go back to the source through self inquiry and cease the story about that tree in my consciousness. Not that trees were good or bad, but its my dream world and how long do I want to keep dreaming? Its just space. I didnt need to do anything.  I just needed to be willing to experience and 'see' Reality.  I just needed to stop believing the thought that created that tree and so many other trees. Instead, I could just look at the sky and let the clouds pass without grasping ... without the need to reach up and own them.  They belonged to no one.  They're just passing by.  I could have, be and do everything by just observing them and letting them pass, like watching a scenery pass me by as I travel in a train. If I try to jump out of the train to grasp a passing scenery, I don't need to be a rocket scientist to know what would happen to me.  I have no need to own anything because everything is already mine to behold and admire and bliss out on.  Seems a better deal!

As I I opened my eyes and squinted in the sun on my porch, I am as sure as I am typing this blog, I saw my off-white half breed Spits pet dog, Sparkie, turn into a cat - everything was more or less the same except that he shrunk down to the size of a cat with a cat face!

I shook my head  and smiled.  A cat indeed!!  Whose thought is that?

My Relationship with "A Course In Miracles"

Lucky for me I recognize that I am just a student of Life.  So, gratefully, there's no pressure to be 'right' and 'wise' and 'popular'.  I have the freedom within me to explore my own truth and pay attention to what my life experiences are teaching me constantly. 

I have evolved from that little kid who thought of God as a punishing, vengeful deity to a woman who sees Spirit as The One who is all benevolent, loving, kind and can be known through personal experience.  I see Life as an embodiment of God.  Ofcourse, I forget this often, but it does'nt take me long to come back on track.  We are such voyagers and have experienced a million voyages in all our lifetimes, but now I recognize and understand it was simply to keep myself SEPARATE from God.  Wow! really?  How did I dare do that?  :))

My personal biggest hurdles and obstacles were trust and abandonment.  These two issues have the tendency to dominate my life if and when I allow it.  I have had all kinds of problems in these areas and experiences which go right back to childhood.  I cannot say I am totally over it because I don't think they will just disappear.  I see them as tools in my life that I was born to use in my awakening of who I Am.  They serve as a reminder of what a warrior I have become.

I am very open to all kinds of teachings that help me in my soul growth but I have a preference for Non-Duality / Advaita / Vedanta teachings because ultimately, the final step is self inquiry for a radical awakening.  That is my opinion, ofcourse!  I have lost the need to judge other people's paths and /or condemn them.  I say, if someone has time to criticize another so much, they probably have nothing much of value going on in their own life.  Now, notice the  subtlety  - at some level I am still judging by having this opinion even if I believe I am not hurting anyone!!  That's what I have noticed about Life on the Earth plane.  We are always going to be doing this judgment thing in some form or the other.  And that's why I like the Christ Path - its going beyond the judgments of right and wrong and and 'seeing' things for what they really are by being non attached and just saying a resounding YES! to all experiences and staying committed till every last false belief is cast away.  I certainly do not believe in the "kick-ass" or "fight against ...." anything kind of attitude!  It's too blasé now.

The teachers who inspire me deeply are Nisargadatta Maharaj, Ramana Maharishi, Jiddu Krishnamurthy, Lillian DeWaters, Joel Goldsmith, Mooji and now Tara Singh, teacher of "A Course In Miracles".  Reading is a big thing with me.  I write only for cathartic reasons.  I am not a skilled writer nor a professional one and I feel at ease when doing this activity.  Its a meditative experience in and by itself.

A COURSE IN MIRACLES

I encountered "A Course In Miracles" quite by chance some eight years ago. I didnt fancy it so much because I found it too drab and boring.  I could'nt understand the language properly and most of all it had all the Christian elements to it which I preferred to stay far away from because of my experience of growing up with so much belief in punishment and guilt and sin, etc. which didnt make sense to me at all.  But I kept coming back to it over and over again, not because of the Course, but because of The Voice behind the Course.  My search for a teacher who could give a non-Christian view to The Course drew a blank. So ACIM was kept aside for leisure reading only ...... that is, until a few days ago when one of my Google+ friends mentioned Tara Singh as being his teacher and how profoundly he affected him.  What??  Tara Singh?  An Indian??  This was really good news and answer to my request to Jeshua to send me someone who would be absolutely right for me.

I must say without prejudice that there is a big difference between Indian spiritual teachers and those of the west.  The western ones like Mooji, Adyashanti, and a few others who have been influenced by Indian / Eastern teachers have a very distinctive way about how they teach and their whole approach comes from a very deep place of knowing, experience and sacred intimacy with Spirit.  Such teachers teach with beautiful and slow pauses.  You have to be totally present with them as they take you into yourself.  The spaces they provide between sentences  enables you fall gently into your own cradle of mystical love you didn't even know existed.  Its like standing on holy ground.

I have nothing but gratitude for this incredible gift in my life at this time.  My friend, Sean Reagan  who is a disciple of Tara Singh's teachings,  seems to me to be such a simple, genuine, down-to-earth and intense Soul.  Listening to what he shares via Youtube gives me a good insight into how much he values The Course and equally his teacher, Tara Singh.

I now feel very committed to giving my full attention to  A Course In Miracles.  I want to do this because I feel it is what I need to do now at this point in time.  Aum.

What is The Christ? The time for learning is over.

"It is in seeking for, 

and asking of,

That which is the highest, 

within you and without you, 

that one comes, therefore, 

to the highest." 

~ Jeshua Letters ~

This is my prayer every day.  I want to get higher and higher in my understanding of Spirit and my holy relationship with All That is.  I want to meet people and teachers who will inspire me to get there by guiding me inwards.   

Today, I am deeply grateful for the gift of a new teacher: Tara Singh.  Many thanks to my Google+ Friend, Sean Reagan, ACIM Teacher and Writer, who shared his thoughts about Tara Singh which caught my attention and led me to further exploration.  First off, Tara's voice is rich, calm and centered.  His tone is meditative.  I love his impression of The Christ based on A Course In Miracles.

Aum

Photo : Anika Maetsch-Siffermann