Spiritual Summer Heat

The last few days have been intense in more ways than one.  The weather is extremely hot for starters and I can feel the heat rising up at times in my body.  Needless to say it became a question for self inquiry. 

What is this heat all about? I could see how Nature is programmed in such a mystical way. The seasons come forth as a natural process to help us keep abreast within and to help us to be preoccupied with our own natural processes ... to be in touch with the weather and move alongwith it, so to speak. Its a reminder to bring our focus back to where it belongs - within! In this blistering summer heat, I am reminded that all my trespasses can be burnt out, transformed and healed.  The more I release and allow, the more will be released and allowed.  The more I send forth my  uncertainties, doubts, fears, etc. to The Central Sun for purification, the more likely I am going to be having an uncomfortable physical experience but its not going to last forever because the magical monsoons will shower us with her blessings of water!  Its part of the 'heating' and healing experience. While it is said that magic comes with a price, I definitely believe miracles come with no price. No charge at all. Infact it's all 'loss' and yet its a winner. I loose all that is no more helpful to my life on the one hand and on the other I gain deeper perspectives and inner wisdom because of that 'loss', not to mention healing and transformation!

Since I was on a roll with the self inquiry, I took this opportunity to also sit with something else that has been nagging  me for a long time now. You see, when I watch the world on TV, there are certain places, people and environments that appear to be so familiar.  Its like I have been there, I feel I belong there, there's a taste of familiarity ... and yet, I have reasoned with myself, 'how is that possible?' I may 'see' and 'feel' the vibration of familiarity and belonging but how would I explain the present day setting? If I was actually there in some past life, it would have an older setting. Since I have never travelled the world in this lifetime, I have no memory or remembrances as such that could serve as an explanation. Not all parts of the world feel that way to me. There are also parts of the world that appear unfamiliar. In the last two days these thoughts have been coming and going in my mind and suddenly! .... !!!! comes an audacious thought from nowhere!!!

Is it entirely possible that I am perceiving something new that is beyond my usual frame of reference? Is it possible that I am beginning to understand what the 'unreal' really means? Is it all becoming more real for me? It feels now that this whole world and life as we see it (ancient, old, modern, new, present day, etc.) is completely part of the unreal dream. Is that why I can actually see the futility of my life just going round and round and keeps coming back to full circle - which I can see now is a point of inquiry - with the same old patterns arising and the same kind of people constantly showing up in my experience? Its all memories. There's no reality. That's why life feels so limited because we are in this realm of our minds which appears to have no door opening to a new life.  Everything appears to be recycled.  Even though technology seems to have made phenomenal progress on the one hand, on the other hand the old is all coming back (whether movies, songs, fashions, education, etc. etc.)and everyone is trying to give a 'new' spin to the old. I feel like we are in limbo.

Is that why I am sensing deeply an old familiarity about the world even though it has a seemingly new spin to it today?  Even interactions with people from other parts of the world seems so familiar and known?  The energy feels like energy that I have interacted and shared in previously.  Wow! what a mystery filled with an inner history, perhaps?

Ancient wisdom tells us that for us to move forward without pain and suffering is to live in the "NOW" COMPLETELY.  This needs deeper comprehension. This is not a New Age lingo. Its not easy to live in the moment.  To live in the moment means complete attention right here, right now, with not an inkling of the mind wandering anywhere. This means letting go all that is familiar and 'safe'.  This means breaking down boundaries where I needed keep them in order to protect myself.  This means to completely reverse my beliefs and to be open to complete change. It also means that I will need to evaluate how long I can keep up charades of pretending to be a part of something or someone just not to upset the apple cart or the known and familiar. It means doing my thing without the need for accolades and praise and recognition. This means forgetting the celebration of birthdays and anniversaries because those are days that make us feel extra special.  All attention is focussed on me and its the only time I can get people to do that!!!  This means building the foundations of something entirely new.  Can I do that?  I'm working on it. I have been working on this for many years now. In my mind there has never been another option. TO CHANGE IS TO CHANGE FROM WITHIN FIRST.

Today, for the first time ever, I felt like a very 'ancient' Soul. "I Am Unborn" says Nisargadatta Maharaj. Indeed, we all are. It's our purpose in life to come to that recognition and remembrance too.

Aum.