As I sit back and recall my life over the years and ponder on what shaped me as an individual, a personality, or whatever, I remember the countless times a 'weird' thought would pass through my mind regarding my relationship with the world, religion, universe, etc. Some thoughts were so weird that I often wondered if it was just me 'becoming' a 'weirdo' and I would just suppress them. Infact I suppressed them to such an extent that I lost my Self.
Looking back now I know that no, it was'nt me becoming anything (least of all a weirdo!) but those were me getting glimpses of my True Nature, my Eternal Existence. Had I followed those thoughts they would have proved to be 'shapeshifters' I am sure .... they would have also explained why I swung from one end of the pendulum to the other ... everything was a mess of confusion - the outer and inner just did'nt seem to match up ... it drove me nuts, but this very mess I now call a holy mess because the very nature of questioning began to unlock my mind bit by bit.
And here I Am living a Life of constant examination inviting every weird, out-of-this-world thought to show up and be welcomed as well as the ones which are hidden deep deep in the recesses of my consciousness waiting to be coaxed and loved back into existence ... into the world of Love.
The purpose of this world and the purpose of being in it now is to drop my beliefs about it and my attachments to it. To be born again literally means to KNOW that in essence and in truth, I Am unborn in All That Is - no beginning, no end, no past, no future - instead it is like that blank space between thoughts, between the past and the future, between fear and love ... the 'in-between' of all things that is simply unexplainable.
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