Walking With The Aramaic Jesus

These days I feel very lonesome alot but in mixed proportions of seeing it as a good thing and seeing it as sad thing.  I'm ALONE and yet ALL-ONE with The One. Not lonely, just alone. I need to be completely awake energetically and metaphysically to see and experience the beauty of such a life state or phase that I am experiencing presently. Its easy to fall asleep, meaning, to fall into the trap of the ego and see it as something else completely other than what it really means.

So, when I feel this heart pull, this hard tug to withdraw and cocoon within, the first book I pull out to help me expand this heart desire is Prayers of the Cosmos: Reflections on the original meaning of Jesus's words by Neil Douglas-Klotz.  It surpasses all the other books I have read that represent the direct words of Jesus.  For me, it is truly food for my soul.  I have visions of Mary Magdalene, St. Teresa of Avila and Mira all rolled into one in their highest love and  ecstasy for God and Jesus, while Mira considered Lord Krishna as her bridegroom.  It is enough added inspiration to want to go into this inner tunnel of love, passion, courage, audacity and vitality. From the depth of darkness emerges The Light.  I want desperately to bask in That Light with full consciousness and consciously.

Let me share a prayer for the sheer delight of the Soul:

Jesus explains how to pray and with what attitude and mind we should ask.  Every word is a nugget of gold. He also reminds us that we haven't done this.  For me, the personal message is I haven't prayed sufficiently and deeply enough to be unified in absolute and utter completeness with Spirit. As I read these words, I feel great warmth and fire in my heart.  I want to stay in that fire of love.

Jesus said:

All things that you ask straightly, directly, that you desire -

like an arrow to its mark,

like birds to their watering place -

from the Breathing Life of All, Father-Mother of the Cosmos,

with my shem -

my experience,

my Light and Sound,

my Atmosphere, my Word:

from inside my Name -

you will be given.

So far you haven't done this.

So ask without the hidden motive and

be surrounded by your answer -

be enveloped by what you desire -

that your gladness be full -

that the joy of goals met here

may continue its story to perfection in Unity -

that the animal life in you

find its lover in the Cosmos.

( Prayers of The Cosmos ) 

http://www.dancesofuniversalpeace.org.uk/prayercosmos.html