So Far, You Haven't Done This

I shared a saying of Jesus from "The Prayers of the Cosmos" with my Soul Sister, Poonam yesterday and we discussed each line and what it could possibly mean.  I felt so good just doing that together with her because it is truly rare to have a spiritual friend with whom you have experienced life in its highest and lowest personally and with each other.  I have a few Beautiful Spirit Friends whom I met through Facebook and though my stint with facebook is over, my connection with them remains unbroken.  Such Friends are like Soul Curry - warm food for the body, mind and spirit.  Poonam and I are Indians and live in the same city, New Delhi. We share a deep history and as we are in the process of peeling off layers and layers of the untrue within us, we are able to support each other in this superb training of Life.  Below is heavenly wisdom and as I savored each line while dropping off to sleep last night because I wanted more clarity and inspiration, I woke up with fresh perspective.  This is the saying of Jesus, The Christ.

And Jesus said

All things that you ask straightly, directly, that you desire -

like an arrow to its mark,

like birds to their watering place -

from the Breathing Life of All, Father-Mother Cosmos,

with my shem -

My experience

My Light and Sound

My Atmosphere, My Word:

from  inside My Name -

you will be given.

So far, you haven't done this.

So ask without hidden motive and be 

surrounded by your answer - 

be enveloped by what you desire -

that your gladness be full -

that the joy of goals met here

   may continue its story to perfection in Unity -

that the animal life in you

find the lover in the cosmos.

~ Prayers of the Cosmos ~

I woke up with fogginess and dullness in my head.  I let it pass naturally without forcing it out.  I felt inspired to be KIND to myself ... to let my Soul spread its Soul Light all over my physical Being and guide me back to the "ISness" of All That Is.  After a couple of hours, I felt inspired to ask what is it have I really not asked?  My answer back was quick - "NOTHING"!! I have asked for nothing valuable throughout my entire life!  What a shock! This needs reviewing.  And as I thought about my needs and wants, etc. I realised with my whole Being, my entire Self, that what I want most today, this moment is to be KIND.

All I want is to be KIND. 

Kind to myself.  Kind to everyone else.  May I be kind unconditionally, with love and no motives to all I come into contact with whether they 'deserve' my kindness or not.   And so I Am immersing myself into the pure world of Kindness by following each line of Jesus's guidance to the last letter possible.

For the Beautiful Soul who is reading this, what does this guidance mean for you?

Aum

The "In-betweens"

As I sit back and recall my life over the years and ponder on what shaped me as an individual, a personality, or whatever, I remember the countless times a 'weird' thought would pass through my mind regarding my relationship with the world, religion, universe, etc.  Some thoughts were so weird that I often wondered if it was just me 'becoming' a 'weirdo' and I would just suppress them.  Infact I suppressed them to such an extent that I lost my Self.

Looking back now I know that no, it was'nt me becoming anything (least of all a weirdo!) but those were me getting glimpses of my True Nature, my Eternal Existence.  Had I followed those thoughts they would have proved to be 'shapeshifters' I am sure ....  they would have also explained why I swung from one end of the pendulum to the other ...  everything was a mess of confusion - the outer and inner just did'nt seem to match up ... it drove me nuts, but this very mess I now call a holy mess because the very nature of questioning began to unlock my mind bit by bit.  

And here I Am living a Life of constant examination inviting every weird, out-of-this-world thought to show up and be welcomed as well as the ones which are hidden deep deep in the recesses of my consciousness waiting to be coaxed and loved back into existence ... into the world of Love.

The purpose of this world and the purpose of being in it now is to drop my beliefs about it and my attachments to it.  To be born again literally means to KNOW that in essence and in truth, I Am unborn in All That Is - no beginning, no end, no past, no future - instead it is like that blank space between thoughts, between the past and the future, between fear and love ... the 'in-between' of all things that is simply unexplainable.

 Aum

I Surrender and Accept. I Am Very Grateful too.

I Surrender to the Love of All That Is.

I Accept and Acknowledge the power of All That Is.

I am Grateful for All That Is.

There is nothing more powerful than the thought (for me) that this life is extremely precious and it is filled with blessings and gifts of love. This Life is Love. Nothing and no one is insignificant. This Life is enriching and fulfilling when accepted exactly as it IS ... When resistance is dropped completely ... When the wish for things to be different is no longer in one's consciousness.  What a relief! Now all the burdens may be dropped willingly and easily.  Sure, nothing will work out according to my expectations, but I no longer care about that.  Its not my concern or interest. Let Life do what it must do. Every day my heart is opening wider and wider to all these facts and deeper and deeper to embrace and comprehend the magnitude and the immensity of this life and the reason for living it.

The gift of choice is not a choice really.  It is Spirit's most deepest way the human brain can understand of the magnitude of love that is behind the teaching of self acceptance and surrender and that Love is the only way. There is no peace in any other pursuit or endeavor. 

I am beyond grateful for my very life.  

I am beyond grateful for all that my life contains in this very moment.

I am beyond grateful for the lessons of soul expansion that drops me deeper and deeper into the ocean of understanding, wisdom and peace.

I am beyond grateful for all of my mistakes, wounds, healing, joy, broken relationships, beautiful friendships, the elements of nature, of all the species ... of everything!!

The vibration of AUM and Her Presence is all encompassing, all loving and deeply trustworthy.  She is THE Power, Force and Love at the back of ALL that the mind can comprehend and beyond.

Aum

No Effort. No Striving.

My morning silence continues as I find my awareness widening and peace deepening. Today, I finally got clued on to the reality of "effortlessness".  It was still a mystery to me and I always thought I did understand it quite a bit, but apparently, I did'nt really.  Whenever I plan and try to take 'action' in doing something, it just never comes out right. In the moment decisions work out amazingly well for me.  I am having many such days now - perfect timing seems to become the theme running through time and space.

"No striving brings the Son to the Father.  No prayer and supplication can achieve it, for these things reside in the world of your creations and thus have nothing of Reality in them."

~ Jeshua Letters ~

This is a thought that keeps coming back to me one way or the other and I am always reminded to contemplate on these words of Jeshua again and again. It is the easy and most simplest things of life that seem unknown to us. We keep looking for complicated stuff to make new discoveries of ourselves. Its like all those contorted yoga positions people strive to master as an exhibition of the art, but all it takes to keep one going throughout the day are simple asanas, stretches and deep breathing!!! I remember  all the physical healing I have  received over the years without any medication whatsoever.  I never talked much about those things to anyone because I was experimenting with the Truth of who I Am and I wanted the experience to be a personal and sacred one. I simply surrendered to the greatest Physician of all - Spirit.  Healing happened with no effort.  All I had to do was be AWARE and keep dropping the false impressions and beliefs I had created in my life. As Jeshua is famously known for saying "go and sin no more". The presence of pain while it was there, was reminding me that there is more work ... keep going ...

And I am still keeping on going ....  I am in awe of Spirit.  

Aum

The Rhythm of Silence

I have started a new discipline which is becoming the ground of my Being.  I'm not sure why I didn't think about it earlier ... perhaps I would not have understood its value appropriately at that time I guess.

Its been a few days since I started a vigil of silence from the time I wake up till 12 noon. I broke the rhythm today absent-mindedly out of sheer excitement (note to myself: be more conscious!) because so many new things are suddenly beginning to happen and inspiration is flowing into my heart like a thin stream of fresh water from somewhere beyond me.  I feel different ... calmer ... in-charge ... slow ... rhythmic ... confident ... sure of what I no longer wish to foster ... the stuff I thought would be difficult to release seem so much easier now ... a whole new set of interests are lighting up my environment ... the list is long and I have only just started!  

This new phase is so welcome because the last two years have been rather stressed as a Caregiver and boundaries were getting blurred more often than I could count.  I was beginning to get sucked in and as I try to  continue to remember that I am a hero in my own world and only I know what I want and how I can change my situation ... ahem! that motivational self talk did'nt work nor were my other efforts.  Efforts.  Ah! that was the key word - too much effort was being put in to change the situation which made the task even more difficult.  I asked myself how can  I bring about change effortlessly.  I got my answer almost immediately because suddenly this thought came out at me like a bolt from the blue at a time when heart palpitations were rising and my hope for change was sinking rapidly.

Spend half a day in silence and self study before emerging into the world each and every day.

Let this be your new discipline.

Well, they say when the student is ready, the teacher will appear.   And that is exactly how I feel now.  My golden teacher of Silence has has put forth its gift in front of me and I have been doing pretty good.  Straight, simple, to-the-point guidance.  

Blessed Be.

The Lord's Prayer ~ Mooji's Version

The Lord's Prayer for me is totally amazing and mystical. I love ALL Versions.  Here's one from one of my most respected and beloved teachers, Mooji.

Beloved Father,

Who dwells within the soul of my Being

Whose name is

I Am

Veneration to your holy name

Thy kingdom is here

Thy will prevails throughout the earth

as it does in the heavenly realms of my soul

You open your hands

and satisfy the hunger of all living beings

You heal all hearts of sorrow

So that they in turn may show forgiveness

to those whose minds

are shrouded in ignorance of the Self

Beloved Mother 

Who imparts to all the sense of choice

so we may finally come to choose

You

who are Truth

and thus find everlasting freedom

Glory to your name

Oh Truth

For yours is the kingdom of existence

of peace and love

All power and glory emanates from

You alone

Who imparts to all

the wisdom, the light, the love and courage

to refer to themselves as

I Am

Amen Om

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My Unique Self

I have spent the last fifteen days in very intense interactions with my Soul.  I think it has something to do with the intense energies on the planet. Its been good, heavy, not so good, freaky, and some other choice words!  But this morning I woke up to a realization that answered ALL of my past queries in just three points:

Unceasing Prayer

Essential (Voice of My Soul)

Extras (The Voice of the world)

Stick with Unceasing Prayer

Listen only to the Voice of my Soul (Essential)

Cease listening to the voice of the world (Extras)

The story below is significant because no matter how flawed I may feel at times, the "flawedness" in and by itself has a soul purpose. Nobody in this world knows me. Only I KNOW me. My suffering ceases the moment I start operating from a deeper trust and an awareness of own Inner Voice. My purpose is to grow vertically, not horizontally.

A STORY

THE CRACKED WATER POT

By Sacinandana Swami

A water bearer in India had two large pots, each hung on one end of the pole he carried across the back of his neck. One of the pots had a crack in it, and while the other pot was perfect and always delivered a full portion of water at the end of the long walk from the stream, the cracked pot arrived only half full. This went on every day for two years, with the bearer delivering only one and a half pots of water to his master’s house.

Of course, the perfect pot was proud of its accomplishment and saw itself as perfectly suited for the purpose for which it was made. But the poor cracked pot was ashamed of its imperfection and miserable that it was able to accomplish only half of what it had been made to do. After two years of what it perceived as bitter failure, it spoke to the water bearer one day by the stream. “I am ashamed of myself and I want to apologize to you.”

“Why?” asked the bearer. “What are you ashamed of?”

“For the past two years, I have been able to deliver only half my load because this crack in my side causes water to leak out all the way back to your master’s house. Because of my flaws you have to work without getting the full value of your efforts,” the pot said.

The water bearer felt sorry for the old cracked pot, and out of compassion he said, “As we return to the master’s house, I want you to notice the beautiful flowers along the path.” Indeed, as they went up the hill, the old cracked pot took notice of the sun warming the wildflowers on the side of the path. The pot felt cheered.

But at the end of the trail, the pot still felt bad because it had leaked out half its load, and again it apologized for its failure. The bearer said to the pot, “Did you notice that there were flowers only on your side of your path, but not on the other pot’s side? That’s because I knew about your flaw and took advantage of it. I planted flower seeds on your side of the path, and every day while we walk back from the stream, you’ve watered them for me. For two years I have been able to pick these beautiful flowers to decorate my master’s table. If you were not just the way you are, he would not have such beauty to grace his house.