There's no "me" to get back to.

 “If you feel distracted, trying to get back to a previous state of mind won’t help. There isn’t a there to get back to. The only place available is in the distraction you are trying to get away from. Not only is there not a place to get back to, there’s not a me to get back to either. You can’t take hold of the past mind. That idea of myself was just made up anyway…Meditation is not about manufacturing a state of mind that’s clear, calm or full of insight. It’s about interfering less and less with what is actually here. The nature of mind is to move. Your mind doesn’t always consult you before it moves. That’s OK, kindness applies to our own minds as well as to others. There is not anything that’s not meditation. You are the universe that you are in, so the thing you think you are not, you’re that too.”

~ John Tarrant ~