I found GOD ~ 2

I had'nt planned on writing part two to my earlier blog "I found GOD"*  but the affirmations, confirmations and synchronicities have been so many since that realization, that I had to share what I found in "The  Joel Goldsmith Reader" pertaining to exactly my own understanding shortly after that. But before I go there, I want to share how precious this practice of blogging is to me.  It helps me to put it out there, to acknowledge to God how well its working for me whatever the experience may be.  Life has all come down to ONE point and that point of start and return lies within me.  The secret is to FLOW.  Its what every saint and sage advises us to do.

*  http://lavinajournalinglivingmoments.blogspot.in/2014/08/i-found-god.html

 

There is no such thing as being or becoming spiritual.  Spirituality is our true essence, identity and nature.  In truth and reality there is no opposite meaning for spirituality either. The mind just needs to be informed about that. 

This morning while my milk was on the stove, I got distracted and forgot about it for a less than a second and it just boiled over!  I usually get irritated about these minor mishaps in the kitchen because I am always trying to hurry things up, but now I have moved to a slower pace and I can see the meaning in every mundane task.  Like the milk boiling over because my attention was removed for a split second, my own mind is like that.  The moment I take my attention from my Higher Self to my lower self/body, I change direction.  "Get a milk boiler" some would respond ... yeah! I can, but the path to the Self is not a quickie .... It is a conscious, mindful path. Everything is The Self.  Consciousness of this fact and Truth makes it REAL for us.  Its a path that spirals upwards in a blissful dance like state to be enjoyed and savored every step of the way.  With that, let me get back to Joel Goldsmith's precious words. 

Excerpt from "THE ONLY GOAL MUST BE ATTAINING CHRIST CONSCIOUSNESS" by Joel S. Goldsmith.

"After seventeen years"?  How long does it take?  How long does it take a student to attain spiritual consciousness?  I can give you half the answer.  A student cannot even begin to attain that consciousness until his goal is no longer that of meeting his personal problems of health, supply, or happiness.  He must no longer be preoccupied with personal gain.  The search for God Awareness must become primary motive of study.  When that is true then the spiritual student is halfway "home".  He must decide that the attainment of Christ consciousness is his only goal and that having help for other problems is of secondary importance.  I am not saying that anyone should neglect human situations or obligations, but these should be secondary.  It then might not take too long."

I would joke a lot with my good friend Poonam that I feel like a monkey on a stationary bike just cycling but going nowhere!  I understand now it was because I spent so much time trying to overcome all my weaknesses and heal my body, mind and spirit mostly from the level of the body consciousness.  It always felt like I'm getting there and about to make a breakthrough, and back I would be to exactly where I started.

I am so blissfully happy I finally got it! I understand its a very common problem for many students  on the path.  One does'nt even realise that one is focusing so much on material manifestations believing we will become awakened and aware.  It makes perfect sense to me now why true blue saints were least interested in manifesting "abundance" in this world.  They were already incredibly abundant - just not in the way we would want.

Aum.

Peace Is My Birthright

 

Life cannot be adequately expressed in words.  The "Allness" of Spirit pervades all - everything.  No matter what is happening now, in this moment, it is all good.  Its all God.  All is well.  I found it difficult in the past to 'see' all of the happenings in life as God no matter how many affirmations I said or how books I read, or how many Youtube lectures I listened to.  It was difficult to stay focussed on the center of Life.

I find it so much easier now as I see the stuff that's happening in the world on the news - the insane madness of murder and war waged by one country on another, the ongoing warring and bullying tendencies of the strong on the weak, the so-called aid that self proclaimed superiors are all so willing to  give to other weaker countries - and ofcourse the 'help' comes in the form of more ammunition. There's a call for peace on the one hand and a declaration of war on the other ... the corruption, disintegration of life and human values  etc. etc. etc.

And on the other hand, there are many many souls working in silence on themselves, healing and restoring and transforming themselves through the Power of the Allness of Life back to their original Innocence.  Its all happening side by side.  This has always been so and this will always be so till the cosmic game is over IN THE MIND.

I am acknowledging all of Life in all of its forms and I know now that this cannot be viewed without proper inner strength and a solid foundation in Spirit.  To just stay centered and let it pass.  Conversing with my Inner Divinity in total silence gives a new perspective.  A perspective that cannot be described in words.  The falsity of it all begins to wash away until I come to that point where I just burst out laughing because its all so funny the way my mind has been in such control over me.  And I am able to take back my power visit by visit to my Inner Sanctuary.

Life is for the LIVING. To view all of Life without judgment is to LIVE.  After all, all that is happening in the bigger picture is happening in the smaller one too - within me - or else it would  be impossible to get a ringside view if that were not true. I see that now more clearly.  The biggest challenge in life is to let go of the aggression that starts within myself.  If I cannot curb it or channelise it, I am harming only myself - big time and consequently the world.

Peace is my natural state.  Peace is my birthright.

Aum.  

I found GOD

 

I found God! !!!!!!  What a strange proclamation from someone who has been on the spiritual path since the last 18 years. 

What exactly does that mean?  Well,  what have I been doing all this time if I have not already found God? Quite simple.  Walking on my path and learning along the way ABOUT what IS of God and what IS not of God.  I was also exposed to many many stories and books and articles   ABOUT  God.  It has taken me this long to discover that there is a BIG difference.  All good stuff for sure. All best sellers and widely acclaimed genuinely beautiful Souls who are making a huge difference in the world. They are serving a purpose and doing amazing things creating magic and miracles in their lives and in the lives of others. All have found God in their own way and expressing their own Divinity in a world that has space for everyone. But there are those few rare Souls who guide you to focus on God Alone. That's the part I have been missing.  Paramahansa Yoganada suggests that we seek THE GIVER not His phenomenal Gifts. I read this guidance many years ago, but it has taken this long a time to actually sink in and get it!

And yet, I felt something still missing in my life.  I had'nt really 'softened'.  I was still 'hard'.  There was an essence, an ingredient missing.  I was still viewing life from the lenses of the world.  I was still anxious about my health, relationships and finances.  I was still wanting something or the other.  I was still restless. I was still feeling triggered.  I was okay for a while and then I would be back to the same old rut.  I think I just got so tired - more tired than I have ever been before.  So, more than a month ago I decided to bury myself in all my inadequacies and dissatisfactions and pain and fear and what-not and not emerge till I found my answers.  I do this often and it has always taken me one step further. Nothing goes to waste.  All that we learn along the journey has a purpose to it.  No learning is complete in itself. Its an eternal beautiful journey and along the distance, you just create a space and acknowledge everyone you meet. Let them know they belong. Most of us need permission because we are still ruled by fear a lot of the times. We remember to give ourselves that permission every day so that we can empower ourselves for the next leg of the journey.  These were the thoughts that were strolling around in my mind.

And then it just happened! 

Last week I had made a list of all the stuff that still plagued my life alongwith action and possible solutions or outcomes.  I stared at my list.  No enlightening moments.  Just dread.  Just the whole idea of dealing with them all again and again made this task wearisome.

I sat in despair for a long time and just did nothing.  When I came back to the list, a sudden flash just lit my whole mind.  God IS the answer.  

Ahem! I know! Aint I on 'the spiritual path' Bright Spark?

Yes! said my Bright Spark - "there's manifestation and then, there's manifestation." 

And in that moment some simple deep Truth questions just burst into my consciousness with clarity.  Everything IS God.  But how aware of God am I?  Do I spend time communing with Him/Her or am I just busy learning and working on tools to manifest wellbeing and goodness in my life?

All answers to those questions are right depending where you are in the moment.  Life works differently for each Soul. Life has a very unique relationship with each Being. That is Life's purpose - to commune deeply and intimately with each Soul, but few listen - very few indeed.  I have never listened fully, properly and deeply before, but this day, the very present NOW MOMENT, I had the perfect answer for me.  The question was always seeking me as was the answer finding me.  It all became an experiential Truth for me.

I looked at my list once again and wrote: GOD IS THE ANSWER TO EVERY SINGLE POINT ON THAT LIST.

And then I felt a deep peace descend upon me.  I had this deep melting, molten longing for God. I found God in the deep silence of my Soul, in that surrendering and letting go completely.  Releasing every phoniness.  I want to MANIFEST God - not just His/Her Gifts.  I want to just sit with God and catch up with this Awesome Being of Love within me and talk with and commune with IT.  I guess in that moment I really understood what "effortless" really means. There comes a time in your life when all that you have ever learned in the world does'nt seem relevant enough for you personally. But in the web of Life it is important to acknowledge, learn and share so that another Beautiful SouI will become part of all of creation.  And so, I am so honored and deeply grateful for their contribution because each and everyone of it gave me more confidence and faith. But in order for my part of the web to shine brilliantly, I have to take that leap of faith alone and solo and use my Inner Light to direct and guide me.  I must acknowledge my own GPS so to speak and trust it to take me where I am needed to be. There is a preciously unique Jewel in each Being's Sacred Heart and in that Heart The Only Power and Presence dwells delighting in Itself and wanting to dance a different dance through each Soul and sing a different tune.  God wants to just delight and be in delight.  It wants to be born anew every moment.  Why not delight and be reborn every moment and make it wildly fun as well?

  

I found God.  Period.  When everything is completely handed over to God, I don't need to actually think about what to 'do' nor do I need to sit with techniques to manifest.  Just the deep longing for God does it all.  And soon I discovered I really don't need the world or anybody for my happiness.  The world is there and it is my utmost and rare privilege to just shine and dance from my deepest core. 

The world IS what I Am.